In the past month, I've been really lucky. I got a good paying job, an amazing boyfriend, and a sweet ass car.

The problem? I'm NOT leaving for the Army anymore and my Dad is PISSED about it. He sends me nasty messages on Facebook like some 12 year-old-middle-school-drama-whore.

At least I got 3 out of 4?

"I Like It"
Dixie Chicks

Some people think I'm crazy
But try to understand
I get satisfaction
Out of everything I can
The losers and the winners
The laughter and the tears
The noises of the day to day
Is music to my ears
And I like it
Yeah I like it, whooa

Gonna live it up this time
And dance like the song is never ending
Gonna get so high tonight
You won't be able to bring me down
Cause I like it
Yeah, I like it

Driving down the highway
The wind is in my hair
And if I hit a traffic jam
I swear that I won't care
Living the lows
Makes the highs that much higher
And the sun will shine through
The smoke and fire of love
Whooa, love
Whooa

Gonna ride this merry-go-round
And dance like the night is never ending
Gonna get so high on life
You won't be able to bring me down
Cause I like it
Yeah, I like it
Oh, baby, I like it
Whooa, I like it

A sea couldn't wash away
The happiness I've come to find since love
Has taught me how to break
Break these chains that hold me back

Noisy streets and the sleepy bars
And the neon signs and the rusty cars
How many nights have I wondered how
One goes through life without seeing the beauty of love
Whooa, the beauty of love
Whooa

Gonna live it up in this town
And dance like the song is never ending
Gonna get so high tonight
You won't be able to bring me down

And I like it
Yeah, I like it
Whooa, baby, I like it
Oh, yeah, I like it

(That's the beauty of life)

I'm just trotting along here. Working out things.

maybe a picture update soon.

I can't believe myself.

It was like my prayers were answered. You called me out of the blue and was a sweet as can be. You wanted a serious talk. We both laid it out on the line, everyone, and everything. No lies.. straight out honesty.

We tried it again.

A week later... CRASH, BANG, BOOM!

You don't think having a girlfriend is right for you right now? Or is it that I'm not there an you have someone else in mind?

Maybe you're right. I'm no good for you and I'm certainly no prize to win. I don't know what you're thinking, and I'm afraid to ask. I don't want to know about another girl. That would kill me.

Here come the tears.

Its getting easier and easier for you to let me go. THATS what kills me. Like you KNOW I'm gonna be here if you change your mind.

You put an end to us, I'm putting an end to this.

I deserve better, and it's time I start to realize that. I'm gonna keep my head up and be happy. My guard won't be let down around you any more. I'm going to treat you like every other scum bag that wants to get in my pants.

You don't want me now, YOU CAN NOT have me later.

This is my post secret

I drink to forget you, but I just end up calling or texting you anyway.

I pick fights with you, just so you'll talk to me.

I unintentionally made you HATE me.

You deleted your facebook, myspace, and changed your number.

I try to go on dates with other people, but I feel like I'm cheating on you.

I miss you.

I cried myself to sleep everynight when you were in Iraq.

I tell people I want nothing to do with you, I lie.

I tell people YOU call and text me, I lie.

My obsession over you is unhealthy, but I continue anyway.

When other guys talk to me, you come to my mind.

I STILL think WE have a chance together.

I get so upset over you, it makes me physically sick.

I made you think I'm crazy.

I have nightmares at night about you- I hate to sleep.

I love you.

It's been 4 months, since yesterday that we broke up. Maybe, someday.. you'll think of me.